Seeking sugardaddy
I hate to think of the hits I’m going to get from that title. Perhaps more than one type of hit, too.
Anyway, I now have an Amazon wishlist, so feel free to buy me stuff. Or not, I don’t really care. I figure wishlists are there for women with webcams, and since I have no cleavage to show off, I shouldn’t get my hopes up.
I’ve been a little bit ‘ugh’ this week, owing to a strange illness that is making me dizzy and tired but not actually sick in any decent way. Add three rehearsals of ‘Blitzkrieg Bop’ by the Ramones and my voice and hearing are not very good either. I really need to sleep but thinking has been keeping me up -
I wonder about Her* and how she is,
and about how easily we all fall in love,
and about how bad we are at taking care of each other.
I think that love, as a word, is overrated. Desire, on the other hand, is always intentional (an action directed toward something). It is not something that floats around in the air, being traded by people, or something you can keep in your pocket. It is a fixation on an object of desire; it does not exclude other desires and it does not, in any way, guarantee our safety. There is no ‘true’ desire they way there is supposed to be a ‘true’ love.
So I’d rather talk about desire for now, because with others we’re always being conflicted; torn in two. Or three, or four.
*Her; an ex-girlfriend.
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I hate to burst your bubble, but don’t you need killer cleavage and a web cam for someone to buy you something from your wishlist???
Comment by David — Sunday August 22 2004 @ 4:07 pm
I agree that “love” has been misused as a word. But I am not so sure that “desire” hasn’t been misused either. And you’re right, most of us cannot take care of each other very well.
Comment by Marisa — Sunday August 22 2004 @ 7:51 pm
Killer cleavage for sure. Does anybody have some I could borrow?
Desire, I think is something a lot simpler than love. Perhaps I wanted to draw a distinction between ‘affection as a social practice’ and ‘affection as a moral-aesthetic response’. Love(tm), as a way of thinking about relationships, has a lot of baggage that might be easier to examine if we can find a simpler analogue, ie. desire, and look at the differences between them.
I’m not sure why you’d say that ‘desire’ is often used misleadingly. Perhaps an example would help?
Comment by Mark — Sunday August 22 2004 @ 11:22 pm
You think too much. Love shouldn’t be thought out so far. Watch more CLAMP. Infinately simple, and infinately complicated. How clishay (p.s. yes, I don’t know how to spell it.)
~Lu.
Comment by Lu — Monday August 23 2004 @ 11:38 am
“Killer cleavage for sure. Does anybody have some I could borrow?”
I’m working on it…
Comment by Robert — Monday August 23 2004 @ 1:05 pm
Think too much? Love is out to get me (that’s the way it seems), so I have to outsmart it. What’s your approach?
Comment by Mark — Monday August 23 2004 @ 1:26 pm
I am sorry - I have no killer cleavage to offer you - as it is I need some desperately. *looks down at her flat chest in despair*
You can’t use “desire” to talk about something like affection anymore - more often than not, nowadays, “desire” is thought of as something physical and sexual and not necessarily emotional, sensual or romantic or affectionate. Which is a pity cos I like all those words. I feel so old. *goes and cries in a corner*
Cupid/Eros is out to get everyone. His mother is to blame. She never got to get with Aries without all the gods harping on her about her leaving poor Vulcan all cuckolded. Cupid/Eros is just being a good son.
I am not making any sense now so I am going to shut up. But I must say - CLAMP rocks!
Comment by Marisa — Monday August 23 2004 @ 1:58 pm
You can have some of my cleavage if you like! I’ll stick another vote in for CLAMP… what’s CLAMP? I think I’m uncool now…
Comment by Ben — Monday August 23 2004 @ 4:22 pm
Did someone saykiller cleavage?
Comment by anthony — Monday August 23 2004 @ 9:13 pm
To Ben: CLAMP is a collective of female anime and manga writers and artists who have produced many of the best and successful anime and manga series in the history of ever including “Chobits” and “Fruits Basket” among others.
Anthony’s concept of killer cleavage scares me…. didn’t know it could be used as a weapon….
Comment by Marisa — Monday August 23 2004 @ 11:37 pm
Thanks a lot, Anthony. Now I’m scared of boobs.
Comment by Robert — Tuesday August 24 2004 @ 8:12 am
I never got into that whole fandangled new anime stuff! Am I the only one immature enough to think that “Chobits” sounds decidedly rude?
Comment by Ben — Tuesday August 24 2004 @ 8:43 am
Yes. Yes you are.
Hey, does anyone have episodes 17 onward of Cowboy Bebop that I could borrow?
Comment by Mark — Tuesday August 24 2004 @ 1:32 pm
Robert
Boobs don’t kill people, bullets do.
Pretty formative day on the cusp of puberty when that video appeared on the shelves as one of the range of 56 at the Merredin video store. Think mum suggested Smokey and the Bandit instead.
Comment by anthony — Tuesday August 24 2004 @ 9:56 pm
CLAMP did not make Fruit’s Basket. I could go on here, but I won’t.
Love is a feeling, just go with it. Every day is an experience, even if it’s a bad one.
~Lu.
Comment by Lu — Wednesday August 25 2004 @ 9:41 am
on the fruits basket thing - my mistake then - i was pretty sure about it though - don’t have bebop episodes :-( but i do have the movie!! Why does anime have to cost so much????
Comment by Marisa — Wednesday August 25 2004 @ 10:03 pm